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Feeling Accomplished

So I can’t find a quote that quite sums up the intent of this blog entry. And I don’t have any pictures to accompany it either, so you may skip right over it.That’s totally okay. πŸ™‚
I really am posting today so I can look back in a few weeks when I am feeling overwhelmed and see that yes, Erin, you really can do this stay at home mom thing just fine!
It is not even 2 pm and I have: played with my son-belly/back time, rocking chair song time, feeding time, etc; washed the tablecloth and did a load of baby laundry, cleaned bottles, emptied the dishwasher, made salads for dinner and got out plates and silverware and dinner is ready to go in the oven, took a shower, took out the recycling, and ate my own lunch πŸ™‚
So all of those things are not all that amazing I suppose, but for me it feels super. And my wonderful husband is going to be on daddy duty for an hour or two tonight while I go get my toes done in honor of our family trip to the Outer Banks next week!
I also want to make mention of the passing of my mother’s beloved dog, Oscar. He lived a wonderful 12 years, the majority of which were with my mother and with me for a few years as well. God really had a hand in my finding him online a good ten years ago, when using the internet for pet hunting was not very popular. He was an AMAZING dog who was loved by anyone who crossed his path. I know he is running around with my childhood dog Cujo and they are eating all the t-r-e-a-t-s they want.

Oscar and his pal Zoey, Christmas 2009

Three months of growth for everyone…

β€œIt’s not what we eat but what we digest that makes us strong; not what we gain but what we save that makes us rich; not what we read but what we remember that makes us learned; and not what we profess but what we practice that gives us integrity.”- Francis Bacon Sr.Β 

At Hershey Museum

Looking like a little referee like Pop Pop

Hanging out with his pal Andrew

Β It is hard to believe that over three months have gone by since I blogged about having contractions while eating waffles and cleaning the house. πŸ™‚ I spent so many hours imagining what our little person would look like, what he would feel like in my arms, what labor would be like, what it would be like to see our child smile for the first time, and the list goes on and on. And here we are, close to 4 months later, and all of those questions have been answered.Β  Evan Robert entered our lives like a rocket (5 minutes of pushing, ladies and gents!) and has forever changed Todd and I for the better. He is not just beautiful to gaze at with those pools of stormy blue for eyes and his droopy cheeks that are just so easy to kiss and nibble on all day. His personality has already begun to shape and I can see little parts of him popping out while he plays, eats, and sleeps. I titled this blog “Three months of growth for everyone,” because I have gone through such a transformation in the past three months while Evan has been growing along side me. I will only speak for myself, but I think Todd would agree that he has grown as well as he took on the role as Daddy. I very naively thought I was going to walk into the role of mother and be a natural. That I was going to start every day with great gusto, and have this whole thing down pat right off the bat. How humbling to so quickly realize that was a ridiculous assumption. πŸ™‚
I was blindsided by sleep deprivation beyond anything I had ever experienced, hormonal imbalance that you cannot prepare for, and this overwhelming feeling that I wasn’t feeling the “right” way or doing the “right” thing. All I wanted was to enjoy our precious new son and get a grasp on being a mom, which is a role I had happily anticipated for years. I spent many a day and night wondering if I would ever feel like “myself” again and if maybe I wasn’t cut out to be the mom I had always wished I would be.Β  Well…..luckily I have plenty of friends and family to remind me that time can do amazing things, as can the support of some wonderful individuals who I cannot begin to thank enough. And here we are, almost 4 months later and I am enjoying my new life as a stay at home mom for the year, and learning to appreciate the last few months as teaching me SO much about myself. I am so thankful to God for trusting Todd and I with our darling little guy. And I am finally feeling confident about my abilities as a mother. I truly believe that I am not alone in some of the feelings I have had and the struggles I faced in the first few months of Evan’s life.I did have some great conversations with some close friends and family members that admitted they felt some similar things and that I should not feel alone or crazy for how I was feeling. That was so helpful and reassuring. I have such amazing people in my life!Β  But most women would prefer to keep their feelings and fears to themselves for fear of judgement and guilt.I figured being honest on this blog might be helpful to someone else one day? You never know…

Anyway, moving on to Evan and all the fun things he is doing!!
First of all, he has experienced some exciting things in the past month including but not limited to… a hurricane named Irene, an earthquake (that his mommy didn’t feel because she was rocking him to sleep, a trip to the Hershey Museum and Chocolate World, and walking in a charity walk. Evan is such a big boy, he is rolling over from belly to back and back to belly. He goes in a complete circle in his crib, and I have gone in to pick him up numerous times to find him on his belly. He had been sleeping 6 hours and then 3 hours after one wake up over night, which we were very happy with! Recently he started waking up twice again but then last night he slept for 8.5 hours! A record! I am trying to increase the volume of milk he drinks which can be a struggle but the past two days he has done much better. Praying for another long stretch tonight! He is grabbing at everything, his toys, the mobile on the swing, Daddy’s glasses…you name it! He can sit in his bumbo chair playing with a toy while I clean bottles or get dinner ready. He smiles and laughs, and sticks his little tongue out while doing both. Oddly enough I still think his favorite place to be is on the changing table! He just smiles and giggles the whole time. He also can sit for multiple book readings now. Which makes me VERY happy. πŸ™‚ My two favorite things right now, are holding him and singingΒ  while he is falling asleep, and listening to him “talk” while he is drinking his bottle. He sounds like he is having a complete conversation with me while drinking. It is so precious.
Better get to sleep, in case he is up in a couple of hours. πŸ™‚ Thanks again for reading!Β 

I’m 3.5 months!!

Appreciating Every Moment

I am stealing a blog post today from a very eloquent writer that I enjoyed reading while pregnant and continue to enjoy reading now as a fellow mother.Here is the link: learning-to-be-present
Check it out. It really made me stop and think when I am running around trying to accomplish things while Evan is in swing, etc- that I need to appreciate the times that I am “forced” to rock him to sleep or soothe him by singing. Those moments should be precious and appreciated, not rushed. Of course we all have moments where we get frustrated or wish that our child could take care of himself for a second….but I know every year I will be lamenting how he needs me less and less. And God blessed us with a child, and that in itself needs to be celebrated.Here are some recent shots. Enjoy!

Evan’s First Bacon

Hanging out in his Bumbo seat

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Our family at Evan’s first baseball game

Evan’s friend Andrew πŸ™‚

I’m over two months!!

Almost a month old!

Hi everyone!
I have so much to blog about and so little time! I want to go back and blog the whole birth story so that Evan can look back and see what an amazing journey he went on in those 8 hours or so on May 27th. πŸ™‚ But for right now I just thought I would quickly let all my blog readers (all 5 of you probably?) that I plan to start blogging once a month or so to update you on how our little family is doing and to sort of chronicle this whole journey. A very special person (my awesome father in law) suggested I try to do that as a new mom. It would be fun to look back on this for Evan but also for me to see how everything has progressed.Β  Including my ability to handle all this NEW motherhood stuff! It’s so funny how it is so true, there is no preparing you for what it is going to be like. The highs, the lows, the challenges, the tears of joy, the tears of pain, there is just so much that hits you in the first month!
But one thing I do know, is that Evan was worth the 10 month wait. He is already developing his own little personality. My favorite time of day with him is after a good feeding when he is alert and just listening to me tell him stories or sing to him. I also love watching him lie on Todd’s belly on the couch together- we must have 10 pictures of the two of them just chilling. I knew I loved my husband, and I knew he would be a good father, but he has far surpassed that now that Evan is actually here. What an amazing man he is.
Evan will be one month on Friday! UNBELIEVABLE.
Big success of the week, he is napping upstairs in his bassinet once or twice a day. So wonderful for him to get a good rest and I can get some things done and see him on the monitor. Must be that box air conditioner providing the white noise πŸ™‚
Looking forward to: Evan following us with his eyes, and knowing who we are. And of course, SLEEPING more. I would take a 4 hour stretch at this point! I hear that will come in a month maybe??
I’ll leave you with a few pictures that you probably have seen but are some of my favorites:

Sleeping angel

Love his little piggies

After a bath!Β 

On Daddy’s Lap

Serious Cheek Action

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