Catch Ya on The Flip Side

Flip Fantasia
I carried so high!

I have been trying to find the time to write this post for weeks now.  I have found myself thinking a lot lately about how grateful I am to be on the “flip side” of different situations.

For example,
-I am very glad to not be 40 weeks pregnant anymore. Glad to not be sitting on the yoga ball, rocking around trying to make contractions happen. Worrying about how our child was doing inside of me. I am glad to have him here with us, growing stronger every day.

Love him

-I am glad to be almost three years out from losing my father.  Please do not read this to mean I am glad my father is no longer with us. That could not be further from the truth. But I am glad to be past the brick-on-my-chest, excruciating grief stage that came for months to follow. I am glad to be at a point where I can talk about it him without crying. (most of the time) I can laugh and share stories about his colorful life with friends and family as to keep his memory alive.

-I am glad it has been almost a year since receiving Evan’s diagnosis.  We are far from feeling completely at ease with everything, but I know that I feel much more settled than I did last summer. I know that it seems like I am always trying to put a positive spin on things on here. And honestly, I probably am, but that is because this is my blog, and that is just how I operate a lot of the time. I just
don’t see merit in focusing for too long on the negative. It doesn’t get me anywhere. I still get mad. I get sad. I ache inside for many different reasons at different times. I am sensitive and emotional and have been my whole life. But that sensitivity also allows me the ability to see the struggles of others. And our struggles just don’t seem as monumental as what I see happening out there.

A few weeks after finding out
And although I wish my little guy would not face adversity as he grows, I also realize that he is incredible. He is incredible because of ALL he is. And that includes having a genetic condition called Williams Syndrome. That includes his raspy giggly voice. That includes his constant vowel sound imitation.  That includes his dislike for pieces of fruit. That includes his engaging, sparkly blue eyes. I could not realize that right away. I could not get past the websites, the pictures, the descriptions of what his life might be like 5, 10, 20 years from now. I couldn’t accept that our future was going to be different from what we had pictured. 
 But I am on the flip side now. 

I am helping to organize a 5K walk and run to benefit the Williams Syndrome Association. I organized an event at a local restaurant as another fundraiser. I have met several families with children who also have WS. I have made amazing friendships with some women that I feel extremely connected to in a very short amount of time.
 I don’t know when the transition happened. When I crossed over into a different world. A world of celebrating the little things. A world of special needs blogs. A world of weekly early intervention appointments. A world of research studies.
All that matters is that it did.
Sometimes I read accounts of other individuals who are struggling; who are barely keeping their heads above water. Life has decided to kick them in the gut with something too hard to handle. It could be a diagnosis, a loss, shocking news.
 My wish is that they could know in their heavy hearts that they, too, will be on the flip side. It may not be tomorrow, it may not be the year to follow. But they will get to that flip side. Hang in there. Remember other difficult times you have muddled through. You will get there.

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2 Comments on Catch Ya on The Flip Side

  1. Vanessa
    April 5, 2013 at 1:30 am (5 years ago)

    Let’s see if my comment works this time. 😉 Thanks for the important reminder! Sometimes it feels as though an emotion won’t ever pass. What a sweet picture of your dad.

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  2. Melissa M
    April 5, 2013 at 2:36 pm (5 years ago)

    Love this post and will print out to re-read. I am not on the flip side yet, but this gives me such hope that it will happen.

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