So I was going to do a funny, simple blog today but I will save that for another day. Today I am going to take part in Five Minute Friday, which is inspired by a blog I read very often, Tales from a Gypsy Mama. Every Friday she writes for 5 minutes without editing or rereading her work, on a prompt. She also encourages others to do the same and link back to her blog. I have never participated, but thought today I would try it out. So I am setting an online timer so I don’t cheat and go over. Ready?
I have entirely too many fears. I wish they were “normal” fears, like spiders, or heights, or snakes. Well, I’m not thrilled about all three of those either, but they do not paralyze me. I know deep down I am afraid of the biggies. Illness and death. And you know the funny thing? I very rarely worry about them for myself. In fact, I found myself the other day watching the t.v. show Parenthood, which you should watch right now or at least sometime within the next 24 hours if you haven’t already, because it is the most phenomenal show on TV. (no paid advertisement, I swear.)
Anyway I was watching, and they had an episode focusing on the character who has breast cancer. They did a knock out job of showing the ugly, scary, heart wrenching parts of fighting cancer, along with keeping humor spattered in throughout. My mind drifted a bit and I found myself thinking, I’m sure I will probably be diagnosed with cancer one day. And I will fight it. And if I lose, that’s okay….And then I focused back on the show…..
Yup. I didn’t feel scared, or paralyzed or even the least bit anxious about it. I have had a few health scares over the years, but I was never really overwhelmed by them.
What overwhelms me
is losing my loved ones.
I honestly cannot imagine losing another person.
I am so blessed to have so many of my loved ones still in my life, but losing my dad ripped me in two.